Vartika's World

The seasons keep changing outside, but in my room, it is always late September. A strange, stretch of time: neither summer nor yet winter. Just a long inhale that never gets to be exhaled. There’s only one portal to the outside world: a tiny window. It lets in slivers of light, moments of wind, just enough to remind me that the world is still alive. Just enough to keep me informed that it moves on with or without me. What about the door, you might ask? The door is not for me to use. It’s too much of an opening. Too much air, too many possibilities. Too much exposure. If I opened it, the fragile insect that’s been growing inside me for some time, that secret, that feeble trembling being, might not survive. This insect is strange. It keeps me sane and drives me mad at the same time. I don’t know if it’s my conscience, or my soul. But I do know this, it throws a new tantrum every day. And oddly, each tantrum gives me a reason to live just one more day. It thrives in the dampness of autu...

Dear Diary, Today, I tried making a recipe—just like Mum. I failed. Dear Diary, Today, I tried something new. It wasn’t perfect. But I savoured the process. And, truth be told, it wasn’t half bad. We spend our lives chasing perfection— Striving to get things “just right,” Holding our breath for the best possible outcome. But somewhere along the way, we forget: There is no such thing as the best. In theory, a cricketer in a T20 match could score 720 runs— Six runs off every ball. Perfect. At least on paper. But we don’t account for no-balls, wides, strike rotations, the chaos between deliveries. Life is just like that match. Wickets fall. People leave. Wide balls happen. And sometimes, those we thought were forever Turn out to be seasonal flus— Brief, burning, gone. Nothing is permanent. And there is no universal rulebook on how to live. No perfect method. No flawless recipe. The only way to live life right Is to live it for real. To show up, imperfectl...

आज कॉलेज से घर जाते वक्त सड़क पर पड़े सूखे पत्तों को देखा तो पता चला पतझड़ आ गया है। सर्दियां पूरी तरह से जा चुकी है और मौसम में गर्माहट होनी शुरू हो गई है। यूंही पत्तों को निहारते मेरी नज़र ऊंचे खड़े सूखे पेड़ों पर पड़ी मानो वो मुझसे कुछ कहना चाह रहे हो। दो सूखी टहनियां मानो जिंदगी का सार बता रही हों। उन पेड़ों को छुआ तो वो सूखे सूखे से थे जैसे शोक में डूबे हों पर कुछ देर ठहरने के बाद मैने जाना कि सिर्फ ऊपरी परत सूखी थी और अंदर से वो अभी भी नर्म थे। इससे मैने जाना कि वो पेड़ दुखी तो हैं पर अंदर से बैसाख के इंतजार में हैं। उन पेड़ों से पांच मिनट की मुलाकात ने मेरा दिन उम्मीद से भर दिया। मुझे जीवन में एक किरण दिखाई दी कि चाहे वक्त कितना भी खराब क्यों न हो उस पर उदास होना गलत नही है पर अंदर से उम्मीद हमेशा रहनी चाहिए कि सब ठीक हो जाएगा। जैसे पेड़ बाहर से कितने भी सूखे न हों उनके अंदर की नर्माहत उन्हे जिंदा रखती है और जब वो नर्माहट खतम हो जाती है तो पेड़ मार जाता है वैसे ही मनुष्य के अंदर से जब उम्मीद खतम हो जाती है तो वो मर जाता है और उसके जीवन का कोई मतलब नहीं रह जाता। 

Heya People!! Today's topic is, as you have read- "Body Positivity". Like most of the topics of my blog, this one is also kinda close to my heart. I am someone who have been insecure about the way I look for the most of the time. My initial insecurity was my body weight. The reasons for me being underweight were many. I had this thought in my mind that if I will eat than I will get fat. And when I got to know that this is not the case, it was too late. My body no longer accepted the quantum of food I should be eating. Moreover, in my growing years I was mostly ill, the reason being I was not eating healthy and enough. This thing also led to my second insecurity that was my height. I am 5'1" which is an average height of an Indian girl. But most of my teenage years I was insecure that I didn't look of the age I was. I was underweight and short! my worst two nightmares combined.  Now you must be wondering Vartika enough of the plot building. Tell us...

क्यों हर सवाल का जवाब ढूंढ रहे हो ? क्यों खुद में ही उलझ रहे हो ? आओ साथ मिलकर बैठे, कुछ गम तुम बाटो, कुछ खुशियां हम भी भरदे।। जिंदगी नही आसान ऐ दोस्त, तुम भी समझ गए और हम भी। चलो अपने राज़ एक दूसरे को बता दे, वज़न कंधो से हटा दे, तुम भी और हम भी ।। आज साथ बैठकर रो लेते हैं, कल साथ में हसेंगे । वादा है तुमसे ऐ दोस्त, जब भी मिलेंगे खूब किस्से सुनाएंगे, तुम भी और हम भी ।। 

I started writing I was not sure if I will continue it or not. I was not even sure whether I will be publishing my second blog or not. But what motivated me? My self esteem, my believe in myself that I am good at writing. NO! not at all. Before all this I never even considered myself as a writer. Just before the beginning of my college life, started my writing journey. At first I shared my blogs with people I know. I was sure they won't say anything that will break my confidence at the same time they will be honest enough to let me know where I can make required changes. But what they did? They did exactly as I expected. They complimented me for my writing and enlightened me where I can make changes to make my writing better. My sister played a major role correcting my grammatical mistakes and helped me stick to conventional English so that I don't use abbreviations that no one will understand.  Okay! so after that came a phase when I started sharing my blogs with m...

Have you ever been so busy in work purposely because you don't want to spend time with yourself alone? Deep down you know that being alone will bring back all that you are running from. But why are you running? Why you are so afraid of facing your own self? Well these questions are now forcing you to talk to yourself. Go for it. Listen to what your mind and heart is screaming to you.  You might have a hundred people to share your feelings with but if you won't listen to yourself first, none of them will be able to help. I am not a psychologist but all I have known from my own experiences is that you are your own best friend and the biggest enemy at the same time. So, it's your choice what you want yourself to turn for yourself. Kinda confusing, right? But there are a zillion things going on in your mind that you need to organise for yourself. No one will do that for you. 

Well this has always been a topic of debate that whether men are superior or women. In order to simply win the argument we often forget that we are humans first. Gender might make us all different but we still are humans and several other points of differentiation don't really matter much. Earlier I wrote a blog in which I wrote about my views on feminism and how equality is important for women. But somewhere fighting for equality for women, we often forget that men are humans too. They also have their own struggles. Just imagine that you are overwhelmed with feelings and emotions but you are not supposed to cry because you are a men. Anyone can cry. It is important to let things out. Also, men are always expected to earn more than their better half, why so? What if he is more into house chores or their can be other reasons that they can never share. Every person have his/her struggle and as much as it is important to stay strong, it is also important to be gentle of on...

Hey! Hope you are fine and not crying because your life is a mess. It is gonna be fine. I know exactly what you are going through and this is going to get worse. But when you will be at your worst, you are gonna rise up from the darkness like a phoenix rises from ash.  You are feeling like your emotions are overpowering you and this is just hormones and situation you are currently in. It's okay to feel things. It's okay to cry over stupid stuffs. What is not okay is let these things consume you. Speak out, stay silent, do whatever makes you feel better today. It's okay to be selfish. What's not okay is self harm and self destruction. So let me begin by addressing things you want to talk least about- your Insecurities. You are insecure about how you look, how you talk, are you even good enough? Will you ever be able to make your parents proud? I have answer to all of these. Looks doesn't matter. Trust me, looks are the first thing that are noticed but the...

TTRRIIGGEERRR!!! sounds weird and kinda scary. But I m not talking about a gun but humans in general. I have not studied psychology but one thing that I have observed and learned over a period of time is that you can't judge a person on the basis of what triggers him/her. For some people a normal thing can be a sensitive topic and if that thing doesn't bother you doesn't mean that it won't bother someone else. It is important to respect sentiments of others. It is important to mutually understand things and clear disparities. 

Yeah!! everyone says life is a journey and death is the ultimate destination. But what matters the most is during this journey where you decide to halt, which places you decide to just walk past, what you consider as a milestone. In the journey of life these places are not real places, they are people and experiences.  When we meet someone whos company we enjoy, we decide to hold on to those people. Sometimes we experience moments that we wish never ends, these are the moments we hold on to. These people and moments collect and become our favorite. We wish to go back to those people even if it's difficult. We wish to live those moments again and again through pictures, videos, conversations and sometimes we just talk to ourselves and remind that life is worth living because of those people and moments.  But to the contrary there are some people who don't play any part in our life. There existence doesn't matter to us. And we need to normalize not caring. And it...

I am a kind of person who strongly believes that whatever happens in our life, we ourselves play a very important part in its happening. I consider myself as a believer, and what I strongly believe in is that we can make things happen by changing vibes and mindset. Mind is the greatest of all in this world. If you know how to make your mind work a certain way, you can do anything in this world. Here I don't want to talk about productivity because I am myself a procrastinator. And hypocrisy is the last thing I want to do in this world.  So, I am going to brag about something I have achieved over a course of past two years. I have successfully overcame my anxiety issues. Still there are days when I feel depressed and question my existence but most of the days I am cheerful and a happy being. I have made this possible by making my mind my bestest friend and so can you. You can win any battle in this world if you have yourself by your side.  The very first thing was th...

What is the first thought that comes in your mind when you see a rose? Mine is: Nature is beyond the understanding of human. We consider rose as a symbol of beauty, love, care and all the good things. But a rose is not just a flower, it's an emotion, it's an inspiration.  Some of you might not know that rose is propagated with the method of layering, which means it grows it's roots itself when it's stem is put into soil. This shows the adaptive nature of rose. We all should learn this thing from rose. No matter how many times we are cut down, we should grow our roots over and over again and stay grounded. But along with it's adaptive nature, the plant of rose is delicate. If not given proper nourishment and care, it dies. Can you notice the similarity in behavior of rose and humans? We have to be strong enough to hold ourselves together in every situation but at the same time we all need proper care and nourishment. This includes how we nourish ourselves...

How you see a crecent moon?  Moon who's more than half is not visible or moon who's some part is still visible.  Both the sentences are almost similar but each of them tell something about your perspective. If you focus on the part that is still visible it means that you manage to find positivity in every situation no matter what. But if you focus on the part that is missing it means that you always struggle with negative side of the situation and fail to enjoy the small and big moments of happiness in your life. Here I have attached a picture of yesterday night's crecent moon. Have a look at it and decide your side of yin or yang. Also, you can take a moment to appreciate my photography just in case.  Have a nice day. 

Beauty is not in meeting standards of society. Beauty is being urself. This is what the sky teaches us. It stays the way it wants and we find it beautiful.