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The Art of Feeling Too Much

Do you ever feel like you feel too much, so much that it becomes an obstacle? In a world full of algorithms and AI-generated content, do your feelings even have a place? If you’re also confused, lost, and enraged, welcome to my world. I have felt out of place my whole life. I have sabotaged my dreams, my career, my relationships, and even the way I see myself because I feel too much. I try to quantify, label, and fit my feelings into a box. I keep reading articles about human psychology as if they will help me understand why my brain does what it does. The only good thing about these feelings is that they have made me a writer. I write and write and write. I write so much that I zone out. I forget what I was writing about, like a pebble thrown into a pond, lost somewhere between its many jumps. I wander off into my own world. Maybe my world is where I am supposed to be. Maybe I do not belong here, or maybe I just have not found my people yet. Either way, I am not going to give up. I am...

The Cost Of Being Known

Every now and then, I get this urge to express my thoughts without a second thought. But the moment I speak out loud, the nakedness creeps in. I feel like a part of me has been severed, and I shall never recover from that loss of myself. I will never be the same person. My thoughts are what make me the person I am. How can I remove them like a discarded appendix? They are not vestigial, they are me. How can I trust someone to accept that part of me? To accept me after knowing that I am not what I pretend to be. I am just an ordinary person who thinks the absurdest thoughts, dark and messed up ones that keep me awake at night. And I pretend to be fine every day, just to meet my demons again in the loneliness of my heart, of my mind.